Letting Go
6:55 p.m. on August 24, 2002
Heylo... There's so much going on around me that I don't even know it.. n e wayz.. I was thinking all last night.. and all morning.. when i decided to take a lil break and catch up on all the other diarylands... I read Thi's.. and realized that on her last entry.. I'm just like that.. I bottle up all my problems and feelings.. and everything and just put a smile on.. cuz everyone loves a smile..
I come across Cy's diaryland...and the whole identity crisis thing.. It made me wonder if I know who I really am... and made me think about the things that I did.. and do..
Then I come to Kat's.. and it was pretty long.. so i thought i would come back to it.. LOL.. but when i did.. I had no idea that that's what it was going to be about.. But Kat.. you don't have to apologize.. I don't care wha you do as long as it makes you happy.. really no need to apologize.. but yea.. Kat's diaryland.. kinda caught me by surprise..
I wanted to catch up on Devika's diaryland too.. and well i was a lil confoozed at first.. cuz I was reading from recent to old.. which isn't such a good idea.. but I straightened everything out... so that was good..
I realized.. that i'm not the only one with "issues" so I shouldn't ask too much from other ppls.. cuz they got theie own things going on...
I kno thinking's not good for you.. and that it leads to sleepless nites and trouble.. but i do it n e wayz... I kno i kno.. i'm just asking for it.. LOL.. Hey Kat.. it happened again.....
WHOA.. Lots of thinking cuz of last nite.. LOL thanx Nicole I needed it.. HA HA Ur such a great listener.. ha ha didn't kno i had it in me.. but yea.. ur advice helped..
So yea.. trying to figure out wha to rhite in a certain letter.. it's gotta be straight forward.. but nice... and i don't kno.. Kat's suppose to help me with it...
But yea.. This letter is going to help me "let go".. Moving on with my life and no more looking back Ü.. Start fresh with a new year.. tennis with Devika.. new classes.. new locker.. new teachers... Starting fresh!
I'm having second thoughts though.. is letting go really the best thing to do??.. Will i regret n e of it??.. Or wha mite or could happen?? LOL.. I'm just so full of questions...
Reading everyone's diaryland made me realize that I must bore the heck out of you guyz.. My entrys are so long yet not very interesting..
N e wayz.. I bought 4 movies today for $45... Maybe i can get my dad to pay me back Ü... But yea.. I just watched one of them.. cuz i needed a break..
Today is Day 7 and i didn't even have to try...............
I should stop procrastinating and get a move on the letter.. so here i go.. Letting go........